So, I just finally finished the final book from the Twilight series, Breaking Dawn. I am happy about the ending...I would have written it the exact same way, though there were some interesting twists and turns along the way. But, all in all, I'm happy. I have to admit, I was concerned. After not reading any novels for so long, I was afraid that I would be disappointed after investing so much of myself in those four big books. ;)
So, hopefully I'm not insane, as there have been many other "Prince Charmings" in books for centuries...but it makes me want to find my own Edward-type man for myself. But really, this blog is about me, not him. ;)
So, after reading about some fictional girl's dreams coming true for a couple of weeks, its time to get my butt in gear to put my own dreams to life...
Right now, I'm at a cross-roads in my life that I never expected. Some in my same situation may be depressed about how they left a decent career, for what??...a healthy unemployment check and a temporary stay in a friend's basement?? I'm unrealistically optimistic though. I am here in this place in my life for a reason. I have been blessed with a friend like Koleen, and her family, who have been so welcoming. The one thing I am having a hard time with is the fact that since I closed the last chapter in my life, there are soooo many options for me now. So many indeed, that I am having a hard time choosing my path. How should I start the next chapter in my life? Christine & Chris were kind enough to offer me a room to stay with them temporarily when I was considering living in Florida. But really, my options are limitless. Unfortunately, I need to find a job, or some other way of producing income...though I did just get a 20 week extension on my unemployment (Thank God!)...
But, if you were in my situation, or similar...what would you do?? Would you hop in your car and move to Florida with another friend?...would you go to California in search of fortune and fame?...or would you actually use that stupid degree you just earned and sit in a cubicle for the next 30 years, would that be enough??
I feel in my heart that I am destined for greatness...there are so many things I could do. I love being close to my family...but will I live this life to my full potential sitting behind some desk? I am almost 30, no kids, with only a 8 year-old golden retriever in tow...nothing is tieing me down, nothing to hold me back...I was comfortable here...but for how long?? Am I destined to be a nomad? I could pick up my music again, or be a talent scout for a record label...I could hob knob with the stars in Hollywood...I could brush up on my artistic skills and become the next Kat Von-D (or whatever)...
I may not know where I want to go, but I have an idea that I don't want the "normal things" out of life.... what would you do??
1 comment:
Im sure Koleen and your family would love to see you stay here in Jackson, but to be honest, I would just go for it. You seriously have nothing holding you back right now. If you don't like it in a year, then come back to where you do like it. Venture out. Especially in a better economy than Jackson, Michigan. I don't see why it would hurt to try and see what else is out there that you like. Spend a year in Florida, then move to someplace else if you arent happy. Your oppertunities are endless right now Nickie. Im not thankful what I do have, but living the life that you could seems pretty grand to me too. And it sounds like you have the urge to explore that as well!
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